Unstable Core

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Fighting with my thought processes.
Every thought lands on, or is interrupted by, a memory, a flashback, a connection, or an assessment of how I may be being seen through another's eyes. My mind is trying to keep me safe by trying to figure out what the hell is going on, and I don't seem to have a choice in this. I'm sick of it and I'm so so tired of bringing myself out of it in a healthy way. I can't concentrate on anything useful because I keep getting side-tracked by these intrusions and I lose my train of thought. Can't even heal any new issues because I can't finish a thought.
I'm grieving the loss of another year of my life, and losing hope that I will ever be able to live for myself again.