Conflagrating Doubts

More about Conflagrating Doubts

I attempt to hasten my metamorphosis, I plea with my inner self. Can I make it accelerate? Deep down I know my path is set. My attempts to catalyzed are are simply unheard. I know myself, I know I cannot push too much, I also know I am being given a grace I never wish to squander.

Am I too fragile? No you have indulged in far too much self doubt...

That is to say feeling this deep have never come before, and will likely never come again. I have a chance and that is all I ever wanted. I must show my plumage without regret. I must show why I am borne of a different cut of cloth. As a mirror ball projection is ad nauseam, yet I indulge in self pity far too much.

No! I let it go.

I encircle my doubts and I cast them to the wind in a regal inferno borne in ozone and crackling of a bolt of lightning. I know I am little without my love, I wish no other path. I know I must wait, I am held back by my karma. An ignorance claws at me, I lay it to waste. I will move mountains, I will cast a downward glance at the highest peaks. This world I built of clinging to my righteousness has only been a ill fated way I sought made to isolate me.

What is right? Not being correct, not knowing a give and take? Finding my twin, my far better half making her way toward me, no more clinging to my darkness, it isn't for me...

A struggle found so real, an addiction to sadness, I know I have it far better then many, and no right to cast myself into ilk.

Doubts have left my mind, now for me there is nothing but a tidal change. I meet my past challenges in the inferno of change. A promise made to my dear. I know I must change. I know pain, and you have as well. I bring this pattern upon myself no more.

I gather my thoughts...

I know right is with you. I know I am true blue, and I know only a love for you. In this journey I know only one question, can I build myself in time? Yes.

Can I bring myself back, a reviving of my best self? I have been given ample time, now it is down to the proving of it. God speed, expediency I pray Sandalphon give me the strength.

My answer given you are not weak, you have led yourself down a path of self doubts for far too long. You are meant for her and if you allow yourself to be led wrong it will harm both of our fates. We are deserving, to realize our dream, family life built in trust, love, understanding no longer lean.

Loved Ever More,
Aaron Baker

PS. A path forward into a love with open minds, open arms. I know understanding starts within and extends outward. Pity clinging to suffering is being put to rest next to any doubts. A phoenix in a rise all because of friends found, not least of which my greatest admirer, my muse.

Blooming 1 Dedicated 4 Taylor Swift
11ov3 Aaron Baker

Inspired in part by Qqpin
https://deepdreamgenerator.com/ddream/fsnvnabwvyw
https://deepdreamgenerator.com/ddream/zllup9igw8h
https://deepdreamgenerator.com/ddream/emxg3i7x0pv