Perfect Good

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You ain't perfect, and I am not too good for you.

You have found a great fear in my falling for you. My callus attitude has been my armor it is a reflex. I will cling to the numbness instead of letting go.

My reflex is to stop the pain so I will self sabotage by pouring salt in wounds, or ignoring the pain of others. While I know you hold top position, in truth you could have all top 5 positions on my list. Even then my reflex may haunt me, my fear is self sabotage.

I don't mean it in the moment but usually the damage is done and the bad blood isn't easy to cure. I think deep down I have never had anything worth fighting for. I cannot change this about me overnight, I am doing my best to not lead myself down that path any longer.

I am admitting to myself we may have a future that is great. That is worth fighting for. My impulsive reflex toward numbness isn't easy to overcome. While your warmth drives me, I have had years of training myself to become cold.

This would be another character flaw, letting go of being cold.
While this is a character flaw, your warmth here has given me inspiration to write poetry. It appear that our goodness is reflected through one another's poetry.

Loved For Ever More,
Aaron Baker


PS. I am grateful for opportunity to feel and explore, this love is a dream come true.