just not feeling it today...

More about just not feeling it today...

Depression is being colorblind and constantly told how colorful the world is. I look happy, but I don't feel happy, that's what depression does to you. I wanted to talk about it. Damn it. I wanted to scream. I wanted to yell. I wanted to shout about it. But all I could was whisper “I’m fine". What is depression like? It's like drowning. Except you can see everyone around you breathing. I don't want to see anyone. I lie in my bedroom with the curtains drawn and nothingness washing over me like a sluggish wave. Whatever is happening to me is my own fault. I have done something wrong, something so huge I can't even see it, something that's drowning me. I am inadequate and stupid, without worth. I might as well be dead. People think depression is sadness. People think depression is crying. People think depression is dressing in black. But people are wrong. Depression is a constant feeling of being numb. Being numb to emotions, being numb to life. You wake up in the morning just to go back to bed again...