Confidence Reborn

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I suppose I know. My world hinges on many what ifs.

Can I pull myself together? Will I believe in myself? Can I smile at myself in the mirror? Can I carry us through trouble? Can I build myself without self sabotage? Will I make it in time? Can I keep my time managed? Can I not fixate on dreams, unshackle or shall I unshackle them? Can I put a smile back on my face?

So much hangs in the balance.

This doesn't mean life stops marching on, the clock counts down.

I experience great loss. It shows me I am about to loose more. A chance at redemption, true love.

I blunder a meeting, and should this be a sign of things to come? How at this late date am I still not taking things as seriously as I must? I tell myself I am, but am I too broken to see that it isn't good enough for me or thee?

I have no words other than self care alone will not get me there.

I must maintain discipline and retain my boyhood charm. This is much easier said than done. I attempt to be gentle with myself, but firm in resolve.

My wishes mean nothing without appropriate action. I don't need endless empathy, second chances. I have made it far, but I need to regain control of my life. I need to become the builder and businessman that I find myself proud to be. I am the only one that can put a smile on my face.

Without it how, am I going to be there for the 1 I adore.

While I would marry you with paper rings, I am not happy with that myself. I wish to learn jewel crafting and forge a ring for you. If am your true love, I am going make this happen. I must prepare from intention through, planning, and action. I must accelerate.

No more beating myself up. I must clear these cobb webs. I know I have little time. I must put to bed this self doubt. In mourning the loss of my sweet doggie companion, I know I will loose far more if don't turn this ship around. I will embody, balance, discipline, my confidence finally back. I got harder just in the nick of time.

Ever, and Evermore,
Aaron Baker

PS. You have given me much respect and hope. You put yourself out there when no one else would. I fear I am making a fool of you, that I cannot abide. I will not ask you to believe in a blunder. I must prove it to myself, or I will be walking a path of the damned, ever and evermore. I look at myself and know one thing, on Willows life I will make this turn happen. I am bruised, but healing I am still mourning but no longer reeling.

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